Saturday, 10 April 2010

Pregnancy tantrums

I had my baby's 3D scan two days ago. It was booked last week and the appointment was supposed to be 20 mins , but then my baby (shy baby) had completely hidden his face towards the uterine wall making it impossible for the doctor to see his face . And so the doctor made me and hubby sit in the lounge for 20 mins and wait for the baby to move around , he also advised me to drink water so that the uterus would rise and atleast then the baby might move but all our efforts were in vain. Baby did move but he had covered his face completely with his legs crossed just before his face. The doctor told us that I was the 5th lady whom he was conducting the scan another time to see the baby's face and told us to make another appointment and even if the baby does not show up his face in the next appointment then the doctor told that they would refund the money.

After a weeks time we again went to the hospital for the unfinished scan. And in the meantime I had instructed the baby to move all round to get a nice video of the baby's movement (as we would also receive a video CD in the package price). I even requested him to show his face and make things easier in the next visit. This time in the hospital , we did see his face but he had again partially covered his face with his beautiful leg. I loved anything I saw inside my womb. He has very cute ankles (infact very sexy) :) When the doctor tried to move his leg my pushing and pressing my tummy , my kid started defending himself by crossing both his legs and both of his arms. I was made to sit again in the lounge and wait for 20 mins. The second time , i was made to walk around and jump in the scanning room to make the baby move around and the third time the doctor told me do anything to make the baby move.

Doctor was absolutely frustrated , he said he normally does not seen such stubborn baby who make a simple scan so complicated and time consuming. I did not know whether to be proud of my smart baby who is so unique or to be angry of his stubbornness. And after the third time , we were given a VCD compiling all the 20 mins of three scans that day and 29 best picture out of the video . During the scan i asked the doctor whether babies do open their eyes inside the womb, no sooner had i asked surprisingly my baby opened his eyes and doctor immediately captured this . I was extremely glad .

Since the scan I have been waking early in the morning to see my baby's scan pictures . I am unable to sleep after 5 am . Early in the morning in my sleep , i often feel that my baby needs me and I end up waking and cuddling his scan pictures. When I see his pictures , my emotions reach its zenith and I cry. I feel my baby is my achievement and i feel so much pride in seeing him. I love his legs , his arms , his bones , his heart beat and most of all I love his face. The first time I saw him in 3D he looked so much like my dad especially his big nose. I am so very happy and delighted to see my kid. I also feel quite depressed coz i still have to wait for 3 more months to see him , to hold him , and to cuddle him . I feel that he needs me , he wants me but I am helpless . Oh love , I know he does not need my pampering and all he needs his my patience and tolerance. Its becoming unbearable and mentally detrimental to me to wait for this kid. Whatever happens , I am regaining my patience and trying to became more calm and composed. I will wait for that little magician to show up and start his magic in my life . I am sure he will be a lovely little genie. I love you .

Thursday, 8 April 2010

First pushchair for the first baby

As I am delivering my adorable son here in UK , the rule is that the newborn baby must have a car seat to travel back home from the hospital . Since we learnt this rule, me and hubby started researching and looking around for car seats and pushchairs . Oh my god , there are loads of companies who make these products and all of them are safe and good and also won few awards for their standard of protection. We were terribly confused . Finally on easter monday when there were many offers and package deals , we decided and ordered .

Yesterday afternoon the door bell rang and a delivery guy delivered our package of pushchair + carseat + footmuff + raincover + changing bag + free sunshade for the car. I waited till my husband opened it and no sooner had he assembled it , i started strolling around the pushchair from kitchen to sitting room to dinning room. I kept hugging the pushchair and stroking the cushioned seat in the pushchair for the baby. I even personified a pillow to our baby and placed it inside the pushchair and admired it . Each passing day is bringing me closer to my motherhood and making me frustrated about when I am going to see and hold my darling in my arms , kiss him on his cheeks and tell him how much i love him and how much i loathed to see him ( secretly sequeeze him also). I feel a strong bond of connection with his pushchair now. I feel i have been waiting for him since ages.